{"id":1195,"date":"2025-09-22T20:20:28","date_gmt":"2025-09-22T20:20:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=1195"},"modified":"2025-09-22T20:20:41","modified_gmt":"2025-09-22T20:20:41","slug":"babam-vefat-edince-annem-cok-yalniz-kaldi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/babam-vefat-edince-annem-cok-yalniz-kaldi\/","title":{"rendered":"Babam vefat edince annem \u00e7ok yaln\u0131z kald\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a> Babam vefat edince annem \u00e7ok yaln\u0131z kald\u0131, i\u00e7ine kapand\u0131. Bu hal beni \u00e7ok \u00fczd\u00fc. E\u015fim Cemal\u2019le konu\u015ftum, annemi yan\u0131m\u0131za almaya karar verdik. Hem o\u011fluma bakar, ben de \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Arkada\u015f\u0131m vas\u0131tas\u0131 ile fabrikada i\u015fe ba\u015flad\u0131m. Tek mesele vardiya sistemi olsa da mesele etmedim. Annem ev i\u015flerinde yard\u0131mc\u0131 oluyor, yemek yap\u0131yor, bizimle sohbet ediyordu.
\nBir vakit sonra annem \u00e7ok de\u011fi\u015fti. Daha bak\u0131ml\u0131, g\u00f6steri\u015fli olmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Bunu Cemal\u2019e s\u00f6yledim ama \u201cYak\u0131\u015f\u0131yor kad\u0131na, kar\u0131\u015fma\u201d dedi. \u0130kisi iyice i\u00e7ten oldu, gece ge\u00e7 saatlere kadar film izleyip sohbet etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Cemal\u2019i uyard\u0131m ama beni umursamad\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn gece vardiyas\u0131ndan d\u00f6n\u00fcnce Cemal i\u015fe gitmemi\u015fti, yorgunum deyip tersledi. Annem de odas\u0131ndayd\u0131, sesini \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ime kurt d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.
\nSonunda sakl\u0131 kamera almaya karar verdim. O gece i\u015fe gitmedim, kafeye oturup telefondan g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u00fc izlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. G\u00f6rd\u00fcklerime inanamad\u0131m.
\n
\nKafede elimde telefon, nefesim daral\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zlerim ekrana kilitlenmi\u015fti. Annemle Cemal ayn\u0131 odada oturuyordu, kahkahalar y\u00fckseliyordu. \u0130\u00e7imde bir ate\u015f, \u201cDemek ki\u2026\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131m. Ama izledik\u00e7e fark ettim ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u015fey bamba\u015fkaym\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Annem elinde kal\u0131nca bir defter tutuyordu. Cemal ona birtak\u0131m kelimeler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor, annem yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, sonra g\u00fclerek yanl\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltiyorlard\u0131. Me\u011fer annem sakl\u0131ce okuma yazma \u00f6\u011freniyormu\u015f! Babam ya\u015farken hi\u00e7 f\u0131rsat bulamam\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7ine dert etmi\u015f. Cemal de fark edince sakl\u0131den sakl\u0131ye ona \u00f6\u011fretmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Onlar\u0131n i\u00e7tenyeti, bana anlatmaya cesaret edemedikleri bu s\u0131rdanm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Ekranda annemin titreyen sesi duyuldu:
\n\u2014 \u201cCemal, \u2018o\u011flum\u2019 kelimesini yazd\u0131m bak\u2026 Do\u011fru mu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Cemal de g\u00fclerek, sevgiyle kafas\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131:
\n\u2014 \u201cDo\u011fru yazd\u0131n anne, bravo sana!\u201d<\/p>\n

O an kalbimden a\u011f\u0131r bir ta\u015f kalkt\u0131. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 tutamad\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imdeki ku\u015fku konumunu derin bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011fa b\u0131rakt\u0131. Me\u011fer ben en sevdiklerimi bo\u015f yere su\u00e7lam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Annem gururla yaz\u0131y\u0131 \u00f6\u011freniyor, Cemal de ona evlat gibi destek oluyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n

O gece eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, ikisine sar\u0131ld\u0131m. Annem \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, Cemal ise bana mana dolu bir bak\u0131\u015f att\u0131.
\nVe ben anlad\u0131m ki; birtak\u0131m hallarda g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn hissetti\u011fiyle ayn\u0131 \u015fey olmayabiliyor. Yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lan bir sessizlik, koca bir sevgiye perde olabiliyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Babam vefat edince annem \u00e7ok yaln\u0131z kald\u0131, i\u00e7ine kapand\u0131. Bu hal beni \u00e7ok \u00fczd\u00fc. E\u015fim Cemal\u2019le konu\u015ftum, annemi yan\u0131m\u0131za almaya karar verdik. Hem o\u011fluma bakar, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1197,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1195","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1195","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1195"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1195\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1199,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1195\/revisions\/1199"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1197"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1195"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1195"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1195"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}