{"id":2153,"date":"2025-10-26T21:19:25","date_gmt":"2025-10-26T21:19:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=2153"},"modified":"2025-10-26T21:19:41","modified_gmt":"2025-10-26T21:19:41","slug":"kucuk-kiz-hergun-uykusunda-yapma-istemiyorum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/kucuk-kiz-hergun-uykusunda-yapma-istemiyorum\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u00dc\u00c7\u00dcK KIZ HERG\u00dcN UYKUSUNDA YAPMA \u0130STEM\u0130YORUM"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a> K\u00dc\u00c7\u00dcK KIZ her g\u00fcn uykusunda YAPMA \u0130STEM\u0130YORUM diye s\u00f6yleniyordu, babas\u0131 duyunca g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde a\u011fr\u0131 H\u0130SSET\u0130
\nBerat, mutfakta \u00e7ay\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131sarken saate g\u00f6z att\u0131. Gece 00:41. K\u0131z\u0131 Ceylan yar\u0131m saat \u00f6nce uykuya dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ev sessizdi. Belki fazla sessiz. Yaln\u0131z bir baba olarak ge\u00e7en 3 y\u0131l, e\u015finden ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Ceylan sadece 3 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. \u015eimdi 6\u2019s\u0131nda. Konu\u015fmas\u0131, bak\u0131\u015f\u0131, duru\u015fu di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklardan farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Daha sessiz, daha temkinli. Berat, kendi yorgunlu\u011fu \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131na ra\u011fmen k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n odas\u0131na gitmeye karar verdi. Her gece kontrol ederdi. Uyurken sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015far, aln\u0131ndan bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck kondurur, sonra usulca odadan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.
\nKap\u0131y\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden bir ses y\u00fckseldi. “Yapma. \u0130stemiyorum.” Berat’\u0131n kalbi s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ceylan g\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131, huzursuzca sa\u011fa sola d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, ayn\u0131 c\u00fcmleyi tekrarl\u0131yordu. “Yapma, istemiyorum.” Berat yata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6meldi. Usulca omzuna dokundu. “Ceylan, can\u0131m, uyan.” Ceylan g\u00f6zlerini aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir anl\u0131k bo\u015flukta gibiydi. Sonra Berat’\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce sar\u0131ld\u0131 ama hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi. Ne r\u00fcyay\u0131 anlatt\u0131 ne de c\u00fcmleyi neden s\u00f6yledi\u011fini. Sadece susarak babas\u0131n\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131.
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\nBerat, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n minik bedenini g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne bast\u0131r\u0131rken, kalbinin s\u0131k\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 ge\u00e7miyordu. O c\u00fcmle, \u201cYapma, istemiyorum,\u201d bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyordu zihninde. Bir k\u00e2bus mu, yoksa daha derin, anlat\u0131lamayan bir yara m\u0131? Ceylan\u2019\u0131n suskunlu\u011fu, Berat\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7indeki korkuyu b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcyordu. O gece, k\u0131z\u0131 kuca\u011f\u0131nda uykuya dalana kadar bekledi, ama kendi g\u00f6z\u00fcne uyku girmedi. Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla birlikte, evin sessizli\u011fini bozan tek \u015fey, Berat\u2019\u0131n zihninde yank\u0131lanan o c\u00fcmleydi.<\/p>\n

Ertesi g\u00fcn, Ceylan her zamanki gibi kahvalt\u0131 masas\u0131nda sessizdi. \u00c7atal\u0131yla taba\u011f\u0131ndaki yumurtay\u0131 itip duruyor, g\u00f6zleri yere sabitlenmi\u015fti. Berat, ne\u015feli bir ses tonu tak\u0131narak, \u201cHadi, prensesim, bug\u00fcn parka gidelim mi?\u201d dedi. Ceylan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e kald\u0131rd\u0131, ama g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemedi. Sadece, \u201cOlur,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. Berat\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7indeki huzursuzluk bir g\u00f6lge gibi b\u00fcy\u00fcyordu. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki o uzak bak\u0131\u015f, bir baban\u0131n ta\u015f\u0131yamayaca\u011f\u0131 kadar a\u011f\u0131r bir s\u0131r sakl\u0131yor gibiydi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti, ama Ceylan\u2019\u0131n uykusundaki f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar bitmedi. Her gece ayn\u0131 s\u00f6zler, ayn\u0131 huzursuzluk. Berat, bir ak\u015fam i\u015ften d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, Ceylan\u2019\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretmeninden gelen bir not buldu. \u201cCeylan bug\u00fcn okulda \u00e7ok durgundu, arkada\u015flar\u0131yla oynamad\u0131, bir \u015fey mi sormak istersiniz?\u201d yaz\u0131yordu. Berat, o notu okurken ellerinin titredi\u011fini hissetti. Bir \u015feylerin yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu biliyordu, ama ne? K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n o minik d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda neler oluyordu.<\/p>\n

Bir gece, yine ayn\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131larla uyand\u0131. Bu kez kararl\u0131yd\u0131. Ceylan\u2019\u0131 nazik\u00e7e uyand\u0131rd\u0131 ve ona, \u201cCan\u0131m, ne oluyor? R\u00fcyanda ne g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun? Bana anlat, l\u00fctfen,\u201d dedi. Sesinde bir baba olman\u0131n \u00e7aresizli\u011fi vard\u0131. Ceylan, g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rarak, \u201cHi\u00e7bir \u015fey, baba,\u201d dedi. Ama sesi titriyordu. Berat, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n elini avucuna ald\u0131 ve usulca, \u201cSana s\u00f6z veriyorum, ne olursa olsun yan\u0131nday\u0131m,\u201d dedi. O an, Ceylan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde bir damla ya\u015f parlad\u0131. Sanki bir s\u0131r, o minik kalbin derinliklerinde kilitli kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve anahtar\u0131 bulmak Berat\u2019a d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n

Berat, o gece sabaha kadar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bu suskunlu\u011fu, bu k\u00e2buslar\u0131, bir \u015feylerin habercisiydi. Art\u0131k beklemek yoktu; bir \u015feyler yapmal\u0131yd\u0131. Belki bir uzmana dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131, belki Ceylan\u2019\u0131n okulundaki \u00f6\u011fretmenlerle daha fazla konu\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ama ne yaparsa yaps\u0131n, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n o minik y\u00fcre\u011findeki y\u00fck\u00fc hafifletmek i\u00e7in her \u015feyi g\u00f6ze alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Ceylan, onun her \u015feyiydi; bir baban\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131, o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

K\u00dc\u00c7\u00dcK KIZ her g\u00fcn uykusunda YAPMA \u0130STEM\u0130YORUM diye s\u00f6yleniyordu, babas\u0131 duyunca g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde a\u011fr\u0131 H\u0130SSET\u0130 Berat, mutfakta \u00e7ay\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131sarken saate g\u00f6z att\u0131. Gece 00:41. K\u0131z\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2155,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2153","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2153","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2153"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2153\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2157,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2153\/revisions\/2157"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2155"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2153"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2153"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2153"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}