{"id":3784,"date":"2025-12-15T18:49:12","date_gmt":"2025-12-15T18:49:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=3784"},"modified":"2025-12-15T18:49:20","modified_gmt":"2025-12-15T18:49:20","slug":"annemi-ariyorum-paylasimini-gordugumde-nefesim-kesildi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/annemi-ariyorum-paylasimini-gordugumde-nefesim-kesildi\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cANNEM\u0130 ARIYORUM\u201d Payla\u015f\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde Nefesim Kesildi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Facebook\u2019ta ama\u00e7s\u0131zca gezinirken bir payla\u015f\u0131mda durdum.<\/p>\n

Gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n,
\u201cAnnemi ar\u0131yorum<\/strong>\u201d diyordu.<\/p>\n

Ama beni as\u0131l durduran yaz\u0131 de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

Foto\u011fraftaki y\u00fcz\u2026
benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmd\u00fc.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Yirmi be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndaki h\u00e2lim gibi bak\u0131yordu kameraya.
Ayn\u0131 g\u00f6zler.
Ayn\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f.
Ayn\u0131 gamze.<\/p>\n

Oysa ben hi\u00e7 hamile kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.
Hi\u00e7 do\u011fum yapmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Peki bu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n kimdi?
Ve neden bana bu kadar benziyordu?<\/p>\n

Cevap, y\u0131llard\u0131r kimsenin a\u00e7mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kutunun i\u00e7indeydi.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Annem \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nce vefat etmi\u015fti.
E\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131na kald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, bir daha hi\u00e7 dokunmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

O gece el fenerini al\u0131p yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kutular\u0131 tek tek a\u00e7t\u0131m.
Alb\u00fcm. Defter. Eski belgeler\u2026<\/p>\n

Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n

Tam vazge\u00e7ecekken, k\u00f6\u015fede k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
\u00dczerinde sadece bir tarih yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n

1974.<\/strong>
Do\u011fdu\u011fum y\u0131l.<\/p>\n

Kutunun i\u00e7i buz gibiydi.<\/p>\n

Bir bebek battaniyesi.
Bir hastane bilekli\u011fi.
Ve ad\u0131m\u0131n yaz\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fu m\u00fch\u00fcrl\u00fc bir zarf.<\/p>\n

Zarf\u0131n i\u00e7inden eski bir gazete kup\u00fcr\u00fc \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201cYerel Hastane Yang\u0131n\u0131nda Bir Bebek Kay\u0131p \u2013 \u0130kizler Ayr\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce, De Moyn\u2019daki bir hastanede \u00e7\u0131kan yang\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131nda ikiz k\u0131z bebeklerden biri kaybolmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n

Benim hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011fim bir ikizim vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kup\u00fcr\u00fcn arkas\u0131nda annemin el yaz\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131:<\/p>\n

\n

\u201cOna s\u00f6yleyemedik. Y\u0131llarca arad\u0131k ama bulamad\u0131k.
Emel huzuru hak ediyordu.
Tanr\u0131 bizi affetsin.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Sessizce a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kutunun en alt\u0131nda solmu\u015f bir kartpostal vard\u0131.
Sadece \u00fc\u00e7 kelime yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130yiyim.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130kizim hayattayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\n

Ger\u00e7ek Kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fma<\/strong><\/h3>\n

Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131na mesaj att\u0131m.
\u201cAilenle ilgili bir \u015fey biliyor olabilirim. Konu\u015fabilir miyiz?<\/strong>\u201d<\/p>\n

Cevap neredeyse an\u0131nda geldi.<\/p>\n

Ertesi g\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kafede bulu\u015ftuk.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi\u011fimiz an ikimiz de donduk.<\/p>\n

Her \u015feyi anlatt\u0131m.
Yang\u0131n\u0131.
Kaybolan ikizi.
Annemin s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Hanna a\u011flad\u0131.
Ben de.<\/p>\n

Haftalarca birlikte arad\u0131k.
Belgeler, kay\u0131tlar, eski haberler\u2026<\/p>\n

Sonunda ger\u00e7e\u011fi \u00f6\u011frendik.<\/p>\n

\u0130kiz k\u0131z karde\u015fim, d\u00f6rt y\u0131l \u00f6nce vefat etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Foto\u011fraf\u0131na bakt\u0131m.
Bize benziyordu.<\/p>\n

Ama Hanna ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 omzuma yaslad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnnemi bulamad\u0131m,\u201d dedi.
\u201cAma ailemi buldum.<\/strong>\u201d<\/p>\n

Kolumu ona dolad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131m art\u0131k eskisi gibi olmayacakt\u0131.
Ama baz\u0131 s\u0131rlar, kalbi par\u00e7alarken\u2026
ayn\u0131 anda \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7eri girmesine de izin verir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Facebook\u2019ta ama\u00e7s\u0131zca gezinirken bir payla\u015f\u0131mda durdum. Gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n,\u201cAnnemi ar\u0131yorum\u201d diyordu. Ama beni as\u0131l durduran yaz\u0131 de\u011fildi. Foto\u011fraftaki y\u00fcz\u2026benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmd\u00fc. Yirmi be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndaki h\u00e2lim gibi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3786,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3784","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3784","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3784"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3784\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3788,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3784\/revisions\/3788"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3786"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3784"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3784"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3784"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}