{"id":4224,"date":"2025-12-24T21:24:09","date_gmt":"2025-12-24T21:24:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=4224"},"modified":"2025-12-24T21:24:21","modified_gmt":"2025-12-24T21:24:21","slug":"kocamin-camasirlarini-katlarken-cebinden-dusen-not-35-yillik-evliligimi-sessizce-bitirdi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/kocamin-camasirlarini-katlarken-cebinden-dusen-not-35-yillik-evliligimi-sessizce-bitirdi\/","title":{"rendered":"Kocam\u0131n \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 Katlarken Cebinden D\u00fc\u015fen Not, 35 Y\u0131ll\u0131k Evlili\u011fimi Sessizce Bitirdi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u00c7ar\u015famba sabah\u0131yd\u0131. Y\u0131llard\u0131r hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmeyen rutinimle \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131 katl\u0131yordum. A\u00e7\u0131klar bir yana, koyular bir yana\u2026
R\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n s\u0131k giydi\u011fi a\u00e7\u0131k renkli lacivert g\u00f6mleklerden birini elime ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir tuhafl\u0131k<\/strong> hissettim.<\/p>\n

\u00d6nce fi\u015f sand\u0131m.
Ama cebinden d\u00fc\u015fen \u015fey bir fi\u015f de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, katlanm\u0131\u015f bir not\u2026
\u00dczerinde sadece alt\u0131 kelime<\/strong> vard\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201cL\u00fctfen onun \u00f6\u011frenmesine izin vermeyin.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Alt\u0131nda bir telefon numaras\u0131.<\/p>\n

35 y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fin ard\u0131ndan, aram\u0131zdaki sessizli\u011fin yaln\u0131zca al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131ktan ibaret olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ok daha derin bir \u015feyi saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131<\/strong> ilk kez o an hissettim.
R\u0131za uzun zamand\u0131r soru sormuyordu. Ben de sormuyordum. Sessizlik, evimizin do\u011fal dili h\u00e2line gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

O gece her \u015fey normaldi.
Yemek yedik, haberleri izledik.
R\u0131za sevmedi\u011fi h\u00e2lde iki bardak \u015farap i\u00e7ti.
Ben hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedim.<\/p>\n

Ama not\u2026
\u00d6nl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn cebinde, kalbimin \u00fcst\u00fcnde<\/strong> duruyordu.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Ertesi sabah, R\u0131za i\u015fe gittikten sonra mutfak masas\u0131nda oturdum. So\u011fuyan kahvem, \u00f6n\u00fcmde duran not\u2026
Ve bir karar.<\/p>\n

Numaray\u0131 arad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Telefonu a\u00e7an kad\u0131n Aylin<\/strong>\u2019di.
Sakin konu\u015fuyordu. Sanki bu aramay\u0131 bekliyormu\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n

Ger\u00e7ek k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede ortaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aylin bir \u00f6zel dedektifti<\/strong>.
K\u0131z\u0131m Selin, babas\u0131n\u0131n son zamanlardaki h\u00e2linden \u015f\u00fcphelenmi\u015f ve onu ara\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131 i\u00e7in Aylin\u2019i tutmu\u015ftu.
R\u0131za bunu \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f, paniklemi\u015fti<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Notu o yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Ama \u201co\u201d dedi\u011fi ki\u015fi ben de\u011fil, k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z Selin<\/strong>\u2019di.<\/p>\n

Yirmi y\u0131l \u00f6nce ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f k\u0131sa bir ili\u015fki\u2026
Bitmi\u015f, \u00fcst\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir ger\u00e7ek.<\/p>\n

Aylin hastayd\u0131. Fazla zaman\u0131 kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.
Amac\u0131 ili\u015fkiyi canland\u0131rmak de\u011fil, ger\u00e7e\u011fin art\u0131k saklanmamas\u0131yd\u0131<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

R\u0131za\u2019ya hemen bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedim.
G\u00fcnlerce s\u00f6ylemedim.<\/p>\n

Onu izledim.
Zay\u0131flamas\u0131n\u0131\u2026
Sevmedi\u011fi h\u00e2lde \u015farap i\u00e7mesini\u2026
Geceleri sessizli\u011fini\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir ak\u015fam ona sordum:
\u201cOnu sevdin mi?<\/strong>\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi. \u201cAma sana s\u00f6yleyemedim. Seni kaybetmekten korktum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o an anlad\u0131m:
Beni kaybetti\u011fi an, ger\u00e7e\u011fi benim yerime ta\u015f\u0131yabilece\u011fine karar verdi\u011fi and\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ertesi sabah k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7anta haz\u0131rlad\u0131m.
Kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken \u00f6fke yoktu i\u00e7imde.<\/p>\n

Sadece netlik vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe kadar s\u00fcre?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cSessiz kalmadan \u00f6nce kim oldu\u011fumu hat\u0131rlayana kadar<\/strong>,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bu evlili\u011fi \u00f6fkeyle terk etmedim.
Onurumu al\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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