{"id":4272,"date":"2025-12-26T19:15:25","date_gmt":"2025-12-26T19:15:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=4272"},"modified":"2025-12-26T19:15:37","modified_gmt":"2025-12-26T19:15:37","slug":"ellerim-kirliydi-ama-kizimin-hayati-temizlendi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/ellerim-kirliydi-ama-kizimin-hayati-temizlendi\/","title":{"rendered":"Ellerim Kirliydi\u2026 Ama K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n Hayat\u0131 Temizlendi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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O g\u00fcn hastanenin kap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri girdi\u011fimde \u00fcst\u00fcm ba\u015f\u0131m h\u00e2l\u00e2 i\u015f yerindeki gibiydi<\/strong>.
Ellerim simsiyah, t\u0131rnaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131 k\u00f6m\u00fcr tozuydu.<\/p>\n

Telefon cebimde titredi\u011finde k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015feylerin yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.
Mesaj k\u0131sayd\u0131: \u201cAcil gelmen gerekiyor.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nas\u0131l ko\u015ftu\u011fumu, hangi sokaklardan ge\u00e7ti\u011fimi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.
Tek bildi\u011fim, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n beni \u00e7ocuk onkolojisi servisine<\/strong> getirdi\u011fiydi.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131da durdurdular.
\u201cBu h\u00e2lde giremezsiniz,\u201d dediler.<\/p>\n

Ben sadece \u015funu s\u00f6yleyebildim:
\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m i\u00e7eride.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Hayatta ilk defa bir kelime bu kadar a\u011f\u0131r gelmi\u015fti bana.
\u201cAcil.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Koridorlar her zamanki gibi so\u011fuktu ama i\u00e7imdeki korku daha so\u011fuktu.
Kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131 atar atmaz bir g\u00fcvenlik g\u00f6revlisi \u00f6n\u00fcme ge\u00e7ti. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131. \u00dczerim ba\u015f\u0131m kir i\u00e7indeydi. Ama o an bunun hi\u00e7bir \u00f6nemi yoktu.<\/p>\n

\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m burada,\u201d dedim.
Sesim titriyordu.
\u201cAd\u0131 Zeynep\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 numaral\u0131 oda.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu ismi s\u00f6ylerken bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onu en son o odada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde g\u00f6zleri korkuyla doluydu.<\/p>\n

O s\u0131rada bir kad\u0131n yakla\u015ft\u0131. \u00dczerinde \u00f6nl\u00fck vard\u0131. Yorgundu ama bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sakindi.
\u201cB\u0131rak\u0131n,\u201d dedi. \u201cBabas\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Kimli\u011fimi istemedi. Sorgulamad\u0131.
Sadece bakt\u0131 ve anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Koridorda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011fdim.
\u201c\u0130\u015ften geldim,\u201d dedim. \u201cDirekt buraya.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6nemli de\u011fil,\u201d dedi.
\u201cBurada olman\u0131z \u00f6nemli.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Odan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda durdum. Ellerime bakt\u0131m. Nas\u0131r doluydu, kir i\u00e7indeydi.
\u201cB\u00f6yle girmem do\u011fru mu?\u201d diye sordum.<\/p>\n

Cevap vermeden kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

Zeynep beni g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc an do\u011fruldu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc solgundu ama g\u00f6zleri parlad\u0131.
\u201cBaba!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n

O an dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc. Yan\u0131na oturdum. Ellerimi saklamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama o fark etti. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ellerini uzatt\u0131, hi\u00e7 teredd\u00fct etmeden tuttu.<\/p>\n

\u201cEllerin yine kirli,\u201d dedi.
\u201cEvet,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma senin i\u00e7in.\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.
\u201cO zaman sorun yok.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Sadece oturduk. Ben onun elini tuttum, o bana bakt\u0131.
Zaman durmu\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131 araland\u0131. Ayn\u0131 kad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 uzatt\u0131.
\u201cBirazdan doktor gelecek,\u201d dedi. \u201cSizinle de konu\u015fmak isteyecek.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ameliyat g\u00fcn\u00fc uzun ge\u00e7ti. Bekleme salonunda y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm, oturdum, tekrar y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Duvara as\u0131l\u0131 saate bakmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Her dakika saat gibiydi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Saatler sonra doktor \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Maskesini indirdi.
G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBa\u015far\u0131l\u0131 ge\u00e7ti<\/strong>,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n

O an dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc. Oturdum. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 tutmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti. Haftalar ge\u00e7ti.
Zeynep yava\u015f yava\u015f toparland\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc ama g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc kaybolmad\u0131. Aynaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda,
\u201cBen sana benziyorum,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n

Ben de ona bakt\u0131m.
\u201cEvet,\u201d dedim. \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcs\u00fcn.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Taburcu g\u00fcn\u00fc geldi.
Kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken durdu, bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBaba,\u201d dedi. \u201cO g\u00fcn neden \u00e7ok kirliydin?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum,\u201d dedim. \u201cSenin i\u00e7in.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.
\u201cO zaman hep \u00e7al\u0131\u015f,\u201d dedi. \u201cAma ak\u015famlar\u0131 gel.\u201d<\/p>\n

Aylar ge\u00e7ti. Zeynep okula ba\u015flad\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 k\u0131sa ama g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc b\u00fcy\u00fck.
Ben h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Ellerim h\u00e2l\u00e2 kirleniyor.<\/p>\n

Ama art\u0131k utanm\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyorum:
Sevgi her zaman temiz g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez.<\/strong>
Bazen yorgunlukla, terle, kirle gelir.<\/p>\n

Ama en ger\u00e7ek h\u00e2li de budur.<\/p>\n

Ve biz\u2026
Biz kazand\u0131k.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/article>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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