{"id":4942,"date":"2026-01-31T21:58:40","date_gmt":"2026-01-31T21:58:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=4942"},"modified":"2026-01-31T21:58:50","modified_gmt":"2026-01-31T21:58:50","slug":"hamile-karisinin-cenazesine-metresini-getirdi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/hamile-karisinin-cenazesine-metresini-getirdi\/","title":{"rendered":"Hamile kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n cenazesine metresini getirdi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Benim ad\u0131m\u00a0Emine Karaca<\/strong>\u00a0ve haf\u0131zamdan asla silemeyece\u011fim tek bir an var\u2014eni\u015ftemin, k\u0131z karde\u015fimin cenazesine koluna metresini takarak geldi\u011fi g\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Teksas\u2019taki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kasabam\u0131z\u0131n kilisesi beyaz zambaklar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r kokusu ve al\u00e7ak sesle edilen dualarla doluydu. En \u00f6nde, k\u0131z karde\u015fim\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin kapal\u0131 tabutu duruyordu. S\u00f6zde merdivenlerden \u201cd\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u201d.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u2019in anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 buydu. Trajik bir kaza. Bundan ibaret.<\/p>\n

Ben ona hi\u00e7 inanmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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Kilise kap\u0131lar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u00a0i\u00e7eri girdi\u011fi anda, odadaki gerilim birdenbire artt\u0131. Siyah bir tak\u0131m elbise giymi\u015fti, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00f6zenle kontrol edilmi\u015f bir ifade vard\u0131\u2014ve yan\u0131nda, sanki oraya aitmi\u015f gibi koluna yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, dar siyah elbiseli uzun boylu esmer bir kad\u0131n duruyordu.<\/p>\n

Annem keskin bir nefes ald\u0131.
\u201cCiddi olamaz\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131, elimi ac\u0131tacak kadar s\u0131karken.<\/p>\n

\u201cO\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>,\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131m. \u0130smi aylar \u00f6ncesinden tan\u0131yordum; Lale\u2019nin telefonunda belirdi\u011fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

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Ba\u015flar d\u00f6nd\u00fc. F\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar yay\u0131ld\u0131.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u00a0hi\u00e7bir \u015fey fark etmiyormu\u015f gibi davrand\u0131.\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>\u2019y\u0131 \u00f6n s\u0131raya\u2014Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin s\u0131ras\u0131na\u2014g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc ve yan\u0131na oturttu; sanki ac\u0131l\u0131 e\u015f oymu\u015f gibi onun omzuna yaslanmas\u0131na izin verdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm yand\u0131. Onu oradan \u00e7ekip almak i\u00e7in yerimden yar\u0131 kalkt\u0131m ama babam beni sert\u00e7e geri oturttu.
\u201cBurada olmaz,\u00a0Emine<\/strong>,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 uyar\u0131r gibi. \u201cT\u00f6ren s\u0131ras\u0131nda de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n

Papaz,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, kahkahas\u0131ndan ve daha do\u011fmadan ad\u0131n\u0131 koydu\u011fu erkek bebe\u011fi\u00a0Nuh<\/strong>\u2019tan s\u00f6z etti. G\u00f6zlerimi\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u2019den alam\u0131yordum. K\u0131z karde\u015fimi sevdi\u011fini iddia eden bir adam\u0131n,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u00a0ve do\u011fmam\u0131\u015f \u00e7ocu\u011fu haftalar \u00f6nce \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fken metresini onun cenazesine nas\u0131l getirebildi\u011fini anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

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Son ilahi bitti\u011finde ve insanlar aya\u011fa kalkmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, gri tak\u0131m elbiseli bir adam \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Elli ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n sonlar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu; sakin ve \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyd\u00fc, elinde deri bir evrak \u00e7antas\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAffedersiniz,\u201d dedi, sesi kilisede yank\u0131lanarak. \u201cBenim ad\u0131m\u00a0Deniz Hakan<\/strong>.\u00a0Lale Demir<\/strong>\u2019in avukat\u0131y\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cem<\/strong>\u00a0bir anda do\u011fruldu.
\u201c\u015eimdi mi? Bunu \u015fimdi mi yap\u0131yoruz?\u201d diye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Avukat hi\u00e7 tepki vermedi.
\u201cE\u015finiz \u00e7ok a\u00e7\u0131k talimatlar b\u0131rakt\u0131,\u201d dedi sakin bir tonla. \u201cVasiyetinin bug\u00fcn, ailesinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde\u2014ve sizin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fczde\u2014a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p okunmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Dosyas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ve bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u2019e sabitledi.<\/p>\n

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\u201cLale<\/strong>\u2019nin, cenazesinde y\u00fcksek sesle okunmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zellikle istedi\u011fi bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm var.\u201d<\/p>\n

Kilise i\u00e7indeki herkes ona kilitlendi. Defalarca a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p kapanm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen, buru\u015fuk tek bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin vasiyetine ekledi\u011fi ki\u015fisel bir mektup,\u201d diye a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131. \u201cKendi el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden\u00a0\u00fc\u00e7 hafta<\/strong>\u00a0\u00f6nce yaz\u0131ld\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cem<\/strong>\u00a0huzursuzca k\u0131p\u0131rdand\u0131.\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>, kolunu daha s\u0131k\u0131 kavrad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Avukat okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\u201cE\u011fer bunu duyuyorsan\u0131z, art\u0131k burada de\u011filim.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>,\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>\u2019y\u0131 biliyorum. Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ok daha uzun zamand\u0131r biliyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

S\u0131ralardan bir soluk y\u00fckseldi. Annem a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u00a0donup kald\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBebe\u011fimiz i\u00e7in seni affetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ama her yalan, her ge\u00e7 gece i\u00e7imdeki bir \u015feyi par\u00e7a par\u00e7a \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bedenimden \u00e7ok \u00f6nce i\u00e7imde bir \u015fey \u00f6ld\u00fc. Bu y\u00fczden vasiyetimi de\u011fi\u015ftirdim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Avukat k\u0131sa bir duraksamadan sonra devam etti.<\/p>\n

\u201cKocam\u00a0Cem Demir<\/strong>\u2019e, yasan\u0131n zorunlu k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey b\u0131rakm\u0131yorum. Kendi ki\u015fisel e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 ve ad\u0131na kay\u0131tl\u0131 arabay\u0131 alabilir. Hepsi bu. Benden zaten yeterince \u015fey ald\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Cem<\/strong>\u00a0aya\u011fa f\u0131rlad\u0131.
\u201cBu sa\u00e7mal\u0131k!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cBunu o yazmad\u0131!\u201d<\/p>\n

Telefonlar gizlice kayda girerken\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>\u00a0kolunu \u00e7eki\u015ftirdi, f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:
\u201cCem<\/strong>, otur.\u201d<\/p>\n

Avukat dimdik durdu.
\u201cLale<\/strong>\u2019nin mal varl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2014ev, birikimler ve hayat sigortas\u0131\u2014do\u011fmam\u0131\u015f o\u011flumuz\u00a0Nuh<\/strong>\u00a0ad\u0131na bir vakfa devredilecektir,\u201d diye okudu. \u201cNuh<\/strong>\u00a0hayatta kalamazsa, vak\u0131f k\u0131z karde\u015fim\u00a0Emine Karaca<\/strong>\u2019ya ge\u00e7ecek ve an\u0131m\u0131 en iyi \u015fekilde nas\u0131l ya\u015fataca\u011f\u0131na o karar verecektir.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc. Bunu bilmiyordum. G\u00f6zlerim ya\u015fla doldu.<\/p>\n

Cem<\/strong>\u00a0ac\u0131 bir kahkaha att\u0131.
\u201cK\u0131z karde\u015fi mi?\u00a0Emine<\/strong>\u00a0kendi faturalar\u0131n\u0131 bile zor \u00f6d\u00fcyor. Bu delilik.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cYerine oturun,\u00a0Cem Demir<\/strong>,\u201d dedi avukat sert\u00e7e. \u201cDaha bitmedi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Evrak \u00e7antas\u0131ndan kal\u0131n, m\u00fch\u00fcrl\u00fc bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden\u00a0iki g\u00fcn<\/strong>\u00a0\u00f6nce ofisime teslim edildi,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u00dczerinde kendi el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla \u015funlar yaz\u0131yor: \u2018\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcm kaza olarak de\u011ferlendirilirse a\u00e7\u0131lacakt\u0131r.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n

Kilise buz kesti. Eski duvar saatinin t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 kulaklar\u0131 sa\u011f\u0131r ediyordu.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u2019in rengi soldu.<\/p>\n

Avukat zarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\u201cCem<\/strong>\u00a0d\u00fc\u015fmemi iddia ederse, l\u00fctfen bunu oldu\u011fu gibi kabul etmeyin,\u201d diye okudu. \u201cBe\u015f Mart<\/strong>\u2019ta,\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>\u00a0hakk\u0131nda onunla y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fimde kolumu morartacak kadar sert tuttu ve bana \u2018Hayat\u0131m\u0131 mahvedersen, ben de seninkini mahvederim\u2019 dedi. Kendi evimde art\u0131k g\u00fcvende hissetmiyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n

Mideme bir a\u011fr\u0131 sapland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cMerdivenlerin ba\u015f\u0131na k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir g\u00fcvenlik kameras\u0131 yerle\u015ftirdim,\u201d diye devam etti. \u201cBana bir \u015fey olursa, avukat\u0131m\u0131n talimatlar\u0131 var.\u201d<\/p>\n

Masaya k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, siyah bir bellek b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nceki gece ofisime g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri i\u00e7eriyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Cem<\/strong>\u00a0ona bakakald\u0131; sanki patlayacakm\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n

\u201cGer\u00e7e\u011fin duyulmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyordu,\u201d diye bitirdi avukat. \u201cVe \u015fimdi duyulacak.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u0130ki hafta<\/strong>\u00a0sonra, ailemle birlikte dar bir karakol odas\u0131nda oturuyordum. Yan\u0131m\u0131zda\u00a0Deniz Hakan<\/strong>\u00a0ve bir dedektif vard\u0131. \u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczde a\u00e7\u0131k bir diz\u00fcst\u00fc bilgisayar duruyordu.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc bulan\u0131kt\u0131 ama ink\u00e2r edilemezdi.\u00a0Lale<\/strong>, merdivenlerin tepesinde duruyordu;\u00a0sekiz ayl\u0131k<\/strong>\u00a0hamileydi, a\u011fl\u0131yordu, elinde telefon vard\u0131. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u00a0ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cGitmiyorsun!\u201d diye hayk\u0131r\u0131yordu. \u201cO\u011flumu al\u0131p gidemezsin!\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cO bir e\u015fya de\u011fil!\u201d diye a\u011flad\u0131\u00a0Lale<\/strong>. \u201cBittik\u00a0Cem<\/strong>.\u00a0Nuh<\/strong>\u2019u al\u0131p ailemin yan\u0131na gidiyorum\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n

Cem<\/strong>\u00a0yukar\u0131 at\u0131ld\u0131, bile\u011fini yakalad\u0131.\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u00a0kurtulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kolu savruldu. Dengesi bozuldu.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z karde\u015fimin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc izledik.<\/p>\n

Annem babam\u0131n kollar\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131, h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011flad\u0131. Nefes alam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

Dedektif videoyu durdurdu.
\u201cBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7arp\u0131yor,\u201d dedi k\u0131s\u0131k bir sesle. \u201cBu bir kaza de\u011fil. Bu bir dava.\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnler i\u00e7inde\u00a0Cem<\/strong>\u00a0tutukland\u0131\u2014taksirle \u00f6ld\u00fcrme, aile i\u00e7i \u015fiddet, delil karartma. Man\u015fetler buna \u201cmerdiven trajedisi\u201d dedi; sanki kurguymu\u015f gibi.\u00a0R\u00fcya<\/strong>\u00a0bir gecede internetten silindi.<\/p>\n

Duru\u015fmada, savc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n arkas\u0131nda oturdum;\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin alyans\u0131 boynumda bir zincire as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131.\u00a0Cem<\/strong>, kelep\u00e7elerle ve turuncu tulumla i\u00e7eri al\u0131nd\u0131. Art\u0131k g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu\u2014yaln\u0131zca k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131mdan ge\u00e7erken t\u0131slad\u0131:
\u201cEmine<\/strong>, onlara s\u00f6yle. Niyetim\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n

Aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m; sesim titriyordu ama kararl\u0131yd\u0131.
\u201cK\u0131z karde\u015fimin cenazesine metresinle geldin,\u201d dedim. \u201cBunun her k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 bilerek yapt\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aylar sonra vak\u0131f resmen sonu\u00e7land\u0131. Miras alacak bir \u00e7ocuk yoktu, bu y\u00fczden her \u015fey\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin planlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi bana ge\u00e7ti. Kendimi \u015fansl\u0131 hissetmedim. Sanki her lira, onun hayat\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m ve de\u011fi\u015ftirdim. A\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f merdiven bo\u015flu\u011funu boyad\u0131m, daha ayd\u0131nl\u0131k \u0131\u015f\u0131klar takt\u0131m ve kullan\u0131lmayan bebek odas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcvenli bir alana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fcm\u2014bar\u0131naklardan gelen kad\u0131nlar\u0131n yard\u0131m, tavsiye ya da sadece inan\u0131lmak i\u00e7in gelebilece\u011fi bir yer.<\/p>\n

Baz\u0131 geceler mutfak masas\u0131nda oturur,\u00a0Lale<\/strong>\u2019nin mektubunu \u00f6n\u00fcme sererim. O sadece bir vasiyet haz\u0131rlam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Bir ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f plan\u0131 \u00e7iziyordu\u2014ya \u00e7\u0131kamazsa diye.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/article>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Benim ad\u0131m\u00a0Emine Karaca\u00a0ve haf\u0131zamdan asla silemeyece\u011fim tek bir an var\u2014eni\u015ftemin, k\u0131z karde\u015fimin cenazesine koluna metresini takarak geldi\u011fi g\u00fcn. Teksas\u2019taki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kasabam\u0131z\u0131n kilisesi beyaz zambaklar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4942","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4942","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4942"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4942\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4945,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4942\/revisions\/4945"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4942"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4942"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4942"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}