{"id":5166,"date":"2026-02-10T19:42:41","date_gmt":"2026-02-10T19:42:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=5166"},"modified":"2026-02-10T19:42:49","modified_gmt":"2026-02-10T19:42:49","slug":"oglum-beni-dugunune-davet-etmedi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/oglum-beni-dugunune-davet-etmedi\/","title":{"rendered":"O\u011flum Beni D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcne Davet Etmedi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Hayat\u0131m\u0131 Oturarak Yeniden \u00d6\u011frenmek Zorunda Kald\u0131m<\/h2>\n

54 ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m.
O\u011flum Emir\u2019i bebekli\u011finden beri tek ba\u015f\u0131ma b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Yakla\u015f\u0131k yirmi y\u0131l \u00f6nce ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim a\u011f\u0131r bir kazadan sonra belden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131 fel\u00e7 kald\u0131m. Hayat\u0131m bir anda darald\u0131. Merdivenler a\u015f\u0131lmaz oldu, kap\u0131lar dar geldi, g\u00fcnl\u00fck ya\u015fam\u0131 oturarak<\/strong> yeniden \u00f6\u011frenmek zorunda kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

O s\u0131rada Emir sadece be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ama bana s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nmedi.
Aksine, bana tutundu; ben de ona.<\/p>\n

Yemek yapt\u0131, sandalyeden yata\u011fa ge\u00e7meme yard\u0131m etti, yoruldu\u011fumda tekerlekli sandalyemi itti. Bazen \u00e7ocuktu, bazen benden daha b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Y\u0131llar boyunca sadece ikimiz vard\u0131k. Hayat\u0131 birlikte ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar sonra Selin\u2019le tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Zarif, varl\u0131kl\u0131 ve kusursuz g\u00f6r\u00fcnen bir kad\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ni\u015fanland\u0131klar\u0131nda mutluluktan a\u011flad\u0131m. O\u011flumun d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7in g\u00fcnlerce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Onu utand\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in nereden girip \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, sandalyeyle nas\u0131l g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyece\u011fimi planlad\u0131m. Tek iste\u011fim, onun g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn kusursuz olmas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ama d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden bir hafta \u00f6nce Emir yan\u0131ma geldi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zlerime bakam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Mek\u00e2n\u0131n tekerlekli sandalye i\u00e7in uygun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Rampa eklemenin \u201cesteti\u011fi bozaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d, sandalyemin foto\u011fraflarda dikkat \u00e7ekece\u011fini anlatt\u0131.<\/p>\n

K\u0131sacas\u0131\u2026
D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde olmam\u0131 istemiyordu.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcm arad\u0131m. Kabul etmedi.
Sonra y\u0131llard\u0131r hayalini kurdu\u011fumuz anne\u2013o\u011ful dans\u0131n\u0131 Selin\u2019in annesiyle yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n

O an i\u00e7imde bir \u015fey sessizce k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bana sadece foto\u011fraflar g\u00f6nderece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi ve gitti.<\/p>\n

Saatlerce orada \u00f6ylece oturdum.<\/p>\n

Sonra fark ettim:
Ona verebilece\u011fim son bir hediyem<\/strong> vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Devam\u0131 ikinci sayfada: D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc teslim edilen paket ve her \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftiren y\u00fczle\u015fme\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Ona Verdi\u011fim Son Hediye, D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc Durdurdu<\/h2>\n

Hediyeyi \u00f6zenle paketledim.
D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc teslim edilmesi i\u00e7in karde\u015fime verdim.<\/p>\n

O \u00f6\u011fleden sonra telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Emir a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Paketi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, t\u00f6reni durdurdu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Her \u015feyi iptal etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra kap\u0131mdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Titriyordu. G\u00f6zleri k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. Elinde, g\u00f6nderdi\u011fim paketten \u00e7\u0131kan tek bir \u015fey<\/strong> vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Eski, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, taban\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ocuk ayakkab\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n

Di\u011feri bende duruyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnne\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cBu ayakkab\u0131y\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131m. Ama neden sadece biri?\u201d<\/p>\n

Onu i\u00e7eri ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cHat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?\u201d dedim.
\u201cBe\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131n. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yordu. Ayakkab\u0131n\u0131n biri \u00e7amurda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cO g\u00fcn seni s\u0131rt\u0131ma al\u0131p eve getirmi\u015ftim. Sonra demi\u015ftim ki:
\u2018Bazen hayatta bir e\u015f kaybolur ama di\u011feriyle y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi \u00f6\u011freniriz.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n

Emir dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen seni o g\u00fcn s\u0131rt\u0131mda ta\u015f\u0131yamad\u0131m,\u201d dedi.
\u201cAma sen beni b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131n boyunca ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sessizlik vard\u0131. Ama bu sessizlik a\u011f\u0131r de\u011fildi.
Ger\u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc iptal etti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. E\u011fer evlenecekse, herkesin girebildi\u011fi bir yerde, rampas\u0131 olan bir mek\u00e2nda olacakt\u0131. Anne\u2013o\u011ful dans\u0131n\u0131 da benimle yapacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cDans edemem,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n

\u201cEderiz,\u201d dedi.
\u201cSandalyeyle. Oldu\u011fu gibi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bizim hik\u00e2yemiz kusursuz de\u011fildi. Ger\u00e7ekti.\u201d<\/p>\n

O an anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n

Hayatta bazen ayakkab\u0131lar e\u015fle\u015fmez.
Biri kaybolur, biri y\u0131pran\u0131r.
Ama \u00f6nemli olan, yan\u0131nda kimin y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc unutmamakt\u0131r<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken ayakkab\u0131y\u0131 masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cDi\u011ferini de yan\u0131nda tut,\u201d dedi.
\u201cBir g\u00fcn torunlar\u0131ma anlat\u0131rs\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ev sessizdi.
Ama i\u00e7im ilk kez uzun zamand\u0131r hafifti.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k biliyordu:<\/p>\n

Hayattaki en g\u00fczel foto\u011fraf, herkesin kadraja s\u0131\u011fabildi\u011fi foto\u011fraft\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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