{"id":52,"date":"2025-08-29T19:18:21","date_gmt":"2025-08-29T19:18:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=52"},"modified":"2025-08-29T19:18:35","modified_gmt":"2025-08-29T19:18:35","slug":"eltime-cok-fazla-guvenmistim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/eltime-cok-fazla-guvenmistim\/","title":{"rendered":"Eltime \u00c7ok Fazla G\u00fcvenmi\u015ftim"},"content":{"rendered":"<figure id=\"attachment_53\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-53\" style=\"width: 1200px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/eltime-cok-fazla-guvenmistim\/2\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-53 size-full\" src=\"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/ff.webp\" alt=\"\" width=\"1200\" height=\"322\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/ff.webp 1200w, https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/ff-300x81.webp 300w, https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/ff-1024x275.webp 1024w, https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/ff-768x206.webp 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1200px) 100vw, 1200px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-53\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Ayn\u0131 binada oturdu\u011fumuz eltimle her \u015fey \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi. Ta ki bir g\u00fcn, onun telefonundan e\u015fimden gelen bir mesaj\u0131 g\u00f6rene kadar&#8230; &#8220;Yar\u0131n ne yap\u0131yorsun? Hakan da evde yok, bir yerde bulu\u015fal\u0131m.&#8221; O an d\u00fcnyam ba\u015f\u0131ma y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131. Kalbim yerinden \u00e7\u0131kacak gibi at\u0131yor, ellerim titriyordu. \u0130yi anla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m eltim ve can\u0131mdan \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim e\u015fim&#8230; Acaba bana ihanet mi ediyorlard\u0131? \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u015f\u00fcphe ve ac\u0131yla nas\u0131l ba\u015f edece\u011fimi bilemiyordum. Y\u00fczle\u015fmeli miydim, yoksa susup ger\u00e7e\u011fi kendi i\u00e7imde mi ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131m? \u0130\u015fte o an\u0131n \u015foku ve ard\u0131ndan ya\u015fananlar&#8230;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><!--nextpage--><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_54\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-54\" style=\"width: 750px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-54 size-full\" src=\"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/v.webp\" alt=\"\" width=\"750\" height=\"422\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/v.webp 750w, https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/v-300x169.webp 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 750px) 100vw, 750px\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-54\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">\u0130hanetin Sessiz Tan\u0131\u011f\u0131: Telefondaki O Mesaj ve Y\u0131k\u0131lan Bir Evlilik Ayn\u0131 binada, \u00fcst katta eltimler, alt katta biz oturuyorduk. E\u015flerimiz i\u015fe gitti\u011finde neredeyse her sabah kahvalt\u0131y\u0131 birlikte yapard\u0131k. Her \u015fey yolunda gidiyordu, ta ki eltimin hamile oldu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131na ve e\u015fimin bu habere beklenmedik tepkisine kadar. E\u015fim, &#8220;\u0130ki \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 var, ne gerek var, bence ald\u0131rs\u0131n&#8221; demi\u015fti. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Aradan bir hafta ge\u00e7mi\u015fti ki, hayat\u0131m\u0131n en karanl\u0131k g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fand\u0131. O An: Telefon ve \u0130hanetin Kan\u0131t\u0131 Eltim bize gelmi\u015fti. E\u015fim balkondayd\u0131 ve onu g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti. Eltim telefona bir \u015feyler yaz\u0131yor gibiydi. Tam o s\u0131rada, eltim tuvalete gitti\u011finde, telefonundan bir mesaj sesi geldi. Dayanamay\u0131p telefonunu ald\u0131m ve mesaj\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m. Gelen mesaj, e\u015fimdendi ve \u015f\u00f6yle yaz\u0131yordu: &#8220;Yar\u0131n ne yap\u0131yorsun? Hakan da evde yok, bir yerde bulu\u015fal\u0131m.&#8221; Y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015f ve \u0130\u00e7sel Hesapla\u015fma O an g\u00f6zlerime inanamad\u0131m. D\u00fcnyam ba\u015f\u0131ma y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Eltim d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey belli etmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama i\u00e7im f\u0131rt\u0131nalar kopuyordu. O ak\u015fam e\u015fim eve geldi\u011finde, her \u015fey normalmi\u015f gibi davrand\u0131m. Sabah kahvalt\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda dayanamay\u0131p, &#8220;Aram\u0131zda bir sorun mu var?&#8221; diye sordum. &#8220;Son zamanlarda bana so\u011fuk davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyorum. Yoksa ba\u015fka biri mi var?&#8221; dedim. E\u015fim \u00f6nce \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, sonra sertle\u015fti: &#8220;Ne sa\u00e7mal\u0131yorsun? Sen kafanda kuruyorsun yine!&#8221; dedi. Art\u0131k ger\u00e7e\u011fi biliyordum. &#8220;Eltime att\u0131\u011f\u0131n mesaj\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,&#8221; dedim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifadeyi asla unutamam. Rengi soldu, konu\u015famad\u0131. O an, en k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015f\u00fcphemin do\u011fru oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m. Sonu\u00e7: Sessiz Bir \u00c7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k ve Bilinmeyen Bir Gelecek Ya\u015fananlar, aram\u0131zdaki t\u00fcm g\u00fcveni yerle bir etti. O andan sonra ne e\u015fimle ne de eltimle ili\u015fkimiz eskisi gibi oldu. \u0130\u00e7imdeki ac\u0131 ve ihanet duygusuyla ba\u015f etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te kendimi yeniden ke\u015ffetmem ve hayata tutunmam gerekiyor. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m, belki de bir\u00e7ok kad\u0131n\u0131n sessizce katland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ac\u0131n\u0131n yans\u0131mas\u0131. Ve ben, bu ac\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131nda, kendi g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":55,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-52","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=52"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":57,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52\/revisions\/57"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/55"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=52"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=52"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=52"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}