{"id":5299,"date":"2026-02-16T05:24:46","date_gmt":"2026-02-16T05:24:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=5299"},"modified":"2026-02-16T05:24:59","modified_gmt":"2026-02-16T05:24:59","slug":"karim-52-yildan-fazla-bir-sure-boyunca-tavan-arasini-kilitli-tuttu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/karim-52-yildan-fazla-bir-sure-boyunca-tavan-arasini-kilitli-tuttu\/","title":{"rendered":"Kar\u0131m 52 y\u0131ldan fazla bir s\u00fcre boyunca tavan aras\u0131n\u0131 kilitli tuttu"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\nE\u015fim elli iki y\u0131l boyunca tavan aras\u0131n\u0131 kilitli tuttu \u2013 nedenini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde ise i\u00e7im sars\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Elli iki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimiz boyunca e\u015fim tavan aras\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kilitli tuttu. \u201cEski \u0131v\u0131r z\u0131v\u0131rdan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey yok,\u201d dedi\u011finde s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sorgulamad\u0131m. Ama o kilidi zorlay\u0131p a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn, ailem hakk\u0131nda bildi\u011fimi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015fey da\u011f\u0131l\u0131p gitti.<\/p>\n

Ben normalde internete yaz\u0131 yazan biri de\u011filim. Yetmi\u015f alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m, emekli deniz subay\u0131y\u0131m. Torunlar\u0131m s\u0131rf bir sosyal medya hesab\u0131m var diye benimle dalga ge\u00e7iyor. Ama iki hafta \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m beni derinden sarst\u0131. Bunu tek ba\u015f\u0131ma ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yorum art\u0131k. O y\u00fczden burada, iki parma\u011f\u0131mla yazmay\u0131 yeni \u00f6\u011frenen ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam gibi bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yaz\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131m Cemal \u2014 herkes bana Cem der. E\u015fim Meral ile elli iki y\u0131ld\u0131r evliyiz. \u00dc\u00e7 harika \u00e7ocuk b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fck. \u015eimdi yedi torunumuz var; her aile bulu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ne\u015feli bir karma\u015faya \u00e7eviriyorlar.<\/p>\n

Bunca y\u0131ldan sonra o kad\u0131n\u0131n her y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc bildi\u011fimi san\u0131yordum \u2014 her al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bilinmeye de\u011fer her s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bursa\u2019da, eski bir konakta ya\u015f\u0131yoruz. G\u0131c\u0131rdayan, inleyen; sanki kendi ruhu varm\u0131\u015f gibi sesler \u00e7\u0131karan bir ev. Hani insanlar\u0131n \u201cacaba perili mi?\u201d diye gezmeye geldi\u011fi t\u00fcrden. Evi bin dokuz y\u00fcz yetmi\u015f iki y\u0131l\u0131nda, \u00e7ocuklar daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fckken sat\u0131n alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnden beri hi\u00e7 ad\u0131m atmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir oda vard\u0131. Merdivenin tepesindeki tavan aras\u0131 kap\u0131s\u0131, a\u011f\u0131r pirin\u00e7 bir asma kilitle kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Y\u0131llar boyunca Meral\u2019e ne zaman sorsam ayn\u0131 cevaplar\u0131 verirdi:<\/p>\n

\u201cSadece eski e\u015fyalar, Cem.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnnemle babam\u0131n evinden kalan mobilyalar.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEndi\u015felenecek bir \u015fey yok.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cTozlu kutular, g\u00fcve yemi\u015f k\u0131yafetler i\u015fte.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00dcstelemedim. E\u015finin e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran bir adam de\u011filim. Herkes biraz mahremiyeti hak eder, de\u011fil mi? Ama elli iki y\u0131l boyunca o kilitli kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7tikten sonra merak\u0131m\u0131n giderek artt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ink\u00e2r edemem.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki hafta \u00f6nce Meral mutfakta torunumuzun do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7in me\u015fhur elmal\u0131 turta yap\u0131yordu. Lavabonun yan\u0131na d\u00f6k\u00fclen suya bas\u0131p kayd\u0131. Salondan \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydum.<\/p>\n

\u201cCem! Yard\u0131m et!\u201d<\/p>\n

Ko\u015farak i\u00e7eri girdim. Onu mu\u015famban\u0131n \u00fczerinde yatarken buldum; kal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 tutuyordu, y\u00fcz\u00fc ac\u0131yla buru\u015fmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n

\u201cSan\u0131r\u0131m k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n

Ambulans h\u0131zl\u0131 geldi. Hemen ameliyata ald\u0131lar. Doktorlar kal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n iki yerden k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylediler. Yetmi\u015f be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda bu hafife al\u0131nacak bir sakatl\u0131k de\u011fil. \u201c\u00c7ok \u015fansl\u0131,\u201d dediler ama bizim ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda iyile\u015fme ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olursan ol yava\u015f ilerler.<\/p>\n

Meral bir bak\u0131m merkezinde fizik tedavi g\u00f6r\u00fcrken ben onlarca y\u0131l sonra ilk kez evde tek ba\u015f\u0131ma kald\u0131m. Ev onsuz bombo\u015ftu \u2014 ne m\u0131r\u0131ldanmas\u0131 vard\u0131 ne ayak sesleri ne de bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu kurdu\u011fumuz o sessiz d\u00fczen. Her g\u00fcn ziyaretine gittim ama geceler uzun ve \u0131ss\u0131zd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o zaman duymaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.
\nE\u015fim elli iki y\u0131l boyunca tavan aras\u0131n\u0131 kilitli tuttu \u2013 nedenini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde i\u00e7im sars\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Elli iki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimiz boyunca e\u015fim tavan aras\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ca kilitli tuttu. \u201cSadece eski \u0131v\u0131r z\u0131v\u0131r,\u201d dedi\u011finde s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sorgulamad\u0131m. Ama o kilidi k\u0131r\u0131p a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn, ailem hakk\u0131nda bildi\u011fimi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015fey da\u011f\u0131l\u0131p gitti.<\/p>\n

Ben normalde internette yaz\u0131 yazan biri de\u011filim. Yetmi\u015f alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m, emekli deniz astsubay\u0131y\u0131m. Torunlar\u0131m bir sosyal medya hesab\u0131m var diye benimle dalga ge\u00e7iyor. Ama iki hafta \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m beni derinden sarst\u0131. Bunu tek ba\u015f\u0131ma ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yorum. O y\u00fczden iki parma\u011f\u0131mla yazarak i\u00e7imi d\u00f6k\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131m Cemal \u2014 herkes bana Cem der. E\u015fim Meral ile elli iki y\u0131ld\u0131r evliyiz. \u00dc\u00e7 harika \u00e7ocuk b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fck. \u015eimdi yedi torunumuz var; her aile yeme\u011fini ne\u015feli bir karma\u015faya \u00e7eviriyorlar.<\/p>\n

Bunca y\u0131ldan sonra o kad\u0131n\u0131n her y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc bildi\u011fimi san\u0131yordum. Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bursa\u2019da, eski bir konakta ya\u015f\u0131yoruz. G\u0131c\u0131rdayan, inleyen; sanki bir ruhu varm\u0131\u015f gibi ses \u00e7\u0131karan bir ev. Evi bin dokuz y\u00fcz yetmi\u015f iki y\u0131l\u0131nda, \u00e7ocuklar daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnden beri hi\u00e7 girmedi\u011fim bir oda vard\u0131. Merdivenin tepesindeki tavan aras\u0131 kap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r bir pirin\u00e7 asma kilitle kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Y\u0131llar boyunca Meral\u2019e ne zaman sorsam ayn\u0131 cevaplar\u0131 verirdi:<\/p>\n

\u201cSadece eski e\u015fyalar, Cem.\u201d
\n\u201cAnnemle babamdan kalan mobilyalar.\u201d
\n\u201cEndi\u015felenecek bir \u015fey yok.\u201d
\n\u201cTozlu kutular, g\u00fcve yemi\u015f k\u0131yafetler.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00dcstelemedim. Ama merak\u0131m y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde artt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki hafta \u00f6nce Meral mutfakta torunumuzun do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7in elmal\u0131 turta yaparken kay\u0131p kal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rd\u0131. Ambulans geldi, ameliyata al\u0131nd\u0131. Yetmi\u015f be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda b\u00f6yle bir k\u0131r\u0131k hafife al\u0131nmaz. Rehabilitasyon merkezine yat\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Evde ilk kez yaln\u0131z kald\u0131m. Geceler uzun ve sessizdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o zaman duydum.<\/p>\n

T\u0131rmalama sesleri. Yava\u015f. Bilin\u00e7li. \u00dcst kattan geliyordu. Sanki a\u011f\u0131r bir \u015fey yerde s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyordu.<\/p>\n

Askerlik i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fclerim devreye girdi. Her ak\u015fam ayn\u0131 saatte, mutfa\u011f\u0131n tam \u00fcst\u00fcnden geliyordu \u2014 tavan aras\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

Bir gece el fenerimi ve Meral\u2019in anahtarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m. Hepsini denedim. Hi\u00e7biri olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu beni sarst\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonunda tornavida ile kilidi k\u0131rd\u0131m. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ar a\u00e7maz a\u011f\u0131r, bayat bir koku yay\u0131ld\u0131. Eski k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t kokusu\u2026 ve alt\u0131nda metalik, rahats\u0131z edici bir koku.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7eri girdim. \u0130lk bak\u0131\u015fta her \u015fey normaldi: kutular, \u00f6rt\u00fclerin alt\u0131ndaki mobilyalar. Ama k\u00f6\u015fede b\u00fcy\u00fck bir me\u015fe sand\u0131k duruyordu. Kal\u0131n, sa\u011flam, pirin\u00e7 k\u00f6\u015feli. \u00dczerinde daha da b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kilit vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ertesi g\u00fcn Meral\u2019i ziyarete gittim.
\n\u201cTavan aras\u0131nda bir sand\u0131k var,\u201d dedim. \u201c\u0130\u00e7inde ne var?\u201d<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn rengi an\u0131nda soldu.
\n\u201cA\u00e7mad\u0131n de\u011fil mi?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n

O an her \u015feyin de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Gece yar\u0131s\u0131 garajdan kerpeten ald\u0131m, tekrar \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Kilit kolayca k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sand\u0131k mektuplarla doluydu. Y\u00fczlerce. Solmu\u015f kurdelelerle ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f. En eskileri bin dokuz y\u00fcz altm\u0131\u015f alt\u0131 tarihliydi \u2014 evlendi\u011fimiz y\u0131l. En yenileri bin dokuz y\u00fcz yetmi\u015fli y\u0131llar\u0131n sonu.<\/p>\n

Hi\u00e7biri benden de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

Hepsi Meral\u2019e yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nAyn\u0131 imza: Kemal.<\/p>\n

Birini a\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cSevgili Meral\u2019im\u2026\u201d diye ba\u015fl\u0131yordu. Hasretten, eve d\u00f6nece\u011fi g\u00fcn\u00fc saymaktan s\u00f6z ediyordu.<\/p>\n

Her mektup ayn\u0131 c\u00fcmleyle bitiyordu:<\/p>\n

\u201cZaman\u0131 gelince senin ve o\u011flumuzun yan\u0131na gelece\u011fim. T\u00fcm sevgimle, Kemal.\u201d<\/p>\n

O\u011flumuz mu?<\/p>\n

G\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mektuplar gizli bir hayat\u0131 anlat\u0131yordu. Kemal uzaktan \u201ck\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Murat\u2019\u0131\u201d izledi\u011fini, onunla gurur duydu\u011funu yaz\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Murat.<\/p>\n

Benim Murat\u2019\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ona top atmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011freten bendim. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcnde koluna girip y\u00fcr\u00fcyen bendim.<\/p>\n

Ertesi g\u00fcn mektuplarla rehabilitasyon merkezine gittim.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu Kemal kim?\u201d diye sordum.<\/p>\n

Meral a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Benden \u00f6nce Kemal\u2019le ni\u015fanl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Bin dokuz y\u00fcz altm\u0131\u015f alt\u0131 y\u0131l\u0131nda askere al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f. K\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra hamile oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f. Kemal her hafta yazm\u0131\u015f, d\u00f6nece\u011fine s\u00f6z vermi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Sonra u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 Kambo\u00e7ya \u00fczerinde d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f.<\/p>\n

Kay\u0131p. \u00d6ld\u00fc san\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki ay sonra ben Meral\u2019le tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. K\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra evlendik.<\/p>\n

Murat\u2019\u0131n d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden yedi ay sonra do\u011fdu\u011funu san\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Murat tam zaman\u0131nda do\u011fmu\u015ftu \u2014 ama sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m babadan de\u011fil.<\/p>\n

Asl\u0131nda hik\u00e2ye burada bitmiyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Kemal Vietnam\u2019da \u00f6lmemi\u015f. Esir d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f. \u00dc\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra serbest kalm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Bin dokuz y\u00fcz yetmi\u015f d\u00f6rt tarihli bir mektupta \u015f\u00f6yle yazm\u0131\u015f:<\/p>\n

\u201cSeni buldum. Kocanla ve kurdu\u011fun ailenle g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Mutlusun. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 bozmayaca\u011f\u0131m. Ama \u015funu bil: Seni hep sevece\u011fim ve o\u011flumuz Murat\u2019\u0131 uzaktan izlemeye devam edece\u011fim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llarca ayn\u0131 \u015fehirde ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131z. O\u011flunu uzaktan izleyerek.<\/p>\n

Daha da sars\u0131c\u0131 olan\u0131 ise \u015fuydu:<\/p>\n

Murat ger\u00e7e\u011fi on alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ndan beri biliyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Kemal bir g\u00fcn ma\u00e7tan sonra onunla konu\u015fmu\u015f. Ama aileyi da\u011f\u0131tmamak i\u00e7in kimseye s\u00f6ylememesini istemi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7en pazar Murat bana sar\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cKan ba\u011f\u0131 olmayabiliriz baba,\u201d dedi, \u201cama benim tek babam sensin.\u201d<\/p>\n

O an kalbim yerinden \u00e7\u0131kacak sand\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Gece uykum ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Kemal\u2019i d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n\u0131 uzaktan seven, o\u011flunu sahiplenemeden izleyen bir adam\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yetmi\u015f alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131mda h\u00e2l\u00e2 ne hissedece\u011fimi tam bilmiyorum. Aldat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131m? Yoksa b\u00fcy\u00fck bir fedak\u00e2rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n par\u00e7as\u0131 m\u0131ydum?<\/p>\n

Ama \u015funu biliyorum:<\/p>\n

Aile sadece kandan ibaret de\u011fildir. Aile; verdi\u011fimiz sevgiyle, korudu\u011fumuz s\u0131rlarla ve sonunda y\u00fczle\u015fmeye cesaret etti\u011fimiz ger\u00e7eklerle kurulur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

E\u015fim elli iki y\u0131l boyunca tavan aras\u0131n\u0131 kilitli tuttu \u2013 nedenini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde ise i\u00e7im sars\u0131ld\u0131. Elli iki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimiz boyunca e\u015fim tavan aras\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5299","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5299","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5299"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5299\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5302,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5299\/revisions\/5302"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5299"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5299"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5299"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}