{"id":661,"date":"2025-09-05T20:43:58","date_gmt":"2025-09-05T20:43:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/?p=661"},"modified":"2025-09-05T20:44:13","modified_gmt":"2025-09-05T20:44:13","slug":"benim-adim-zeynep-bir-zamanlar-bende","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/benim-adim-zeynep-bir-zamanlar-bende\/","title":{"rendered":"Benim ad\u0131m Zeynep\u2026 Bir zamanlar bende"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a> Benim ad\u0131m Zeynep\u2026 Bir zamanlar bende anam\u0131n g\u00f6z bebe\u011fi tertemiz k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131m. Ama a\u015f\u0131k oldum, beni yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zlerimi k\u00f6r etmi\u015fti. Ka\u00e7al\u0131m ailen seni bana vermez dedi \u015fehirde ikimizde fabrikada \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131z hem ailene de para g\u00f6ndeririz bir s\u00fcre sonra affederler bizi dedi, onun a\u015fk\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bir\u015fey g\u00f6rmez oldu g\u00f6zlerim her s\u00f6yledi\u011fine inan\u0131yordum, tamam ka\u00e7al\u0131m dedim, art\u0131k herg\u00fcn onun yan\u0131nda olaca\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00e7ok mutluydum. \u00c7ocuktum, saf\u00e7a inand\u0131m. Oysa fabrika falan yokmu\u015f\u2026 Demir kap\u0131lar ard\u0131nda sat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m. O g\u00fcnden sonra hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ayn\u0131 olmad\u0131. Bana kimse ad\u0131mla seslenmedi; sadece bir numara verdiler. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7meye utan\u0131r oldum. Her gece biraz daha \u00f6ld\u00fcm, her sabah g\u00f6zlerimin alt\u0131ndaki morluklarla uyand\u0131m. Gizlice saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m eski bir defter vard\u0131. \u00c7ocukken yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, son sat\u0131r\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle diyordu: \u201cBir g\u00fcn buradan kurtulaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Her bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda i\u00e7imde c\u0131l\u0131z bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m yanar, sonra hemen s\u00f6nerdi. O gece patron kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7arparak a\u00e7t\u0131. Ka\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131k, sesi sertti: \u201cHaz\u0131rlan! Son m\u00fc\u015fterin geliyor.\u201d Titreyen ellerimle sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fczelttim, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sildim. \u0130\u00e7imde garip bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 vard\u0131, sanki bu gece di\u011ferlerinden farkl\u0131 olacakt\u0131. Ve kap\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u2026 \u0130\u00e7eri giren adam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez nefesim kesildi, donup kald\u0131m.
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\n\"\" Benim ad\u0131m Zeynep\u2026 On alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131mda k\u00f6yden \u015fehre g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler beni. \u201cFabrikada \u00e7al\u0131\u015facaks\u0131n, ailene para g\u00f6ndereceksin.\u201d dediler. \u00c7ocuktum, saf\u00e7a inand\u0131m. Oysa fabrika falan yokmu\u015f\u2026 Demir kap\u0131lar ard\u0131nda sat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m. O g\u00fcnden sonra hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ayn\u0131 olmad\u0131. Bana kimse ad\u0131mla seslenmedi; sadece bir numara verdiler. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7meye utan\u0131r oldum. Her gece biraz daha \u00f6ld\u00fcm, her sabah g\u00f6zlerimin alt\u0131ndaki morluklarla uyand\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imde tek teselli, \u00e7ocukken yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve gizlice saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m eski bir defterdi. Son sayfas\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle diyordu: \u201cBir g\u00fcn buradan kurtulaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti\u2026 Bir gece patron kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7arparak a\u00e7t\u0131. Ka\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131k, sesi sertti: \u201cHaz\u0131rlan! Son m\u00fc\u015fterin geliyor.\u201d Titreyen ellerimle sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fczelttim, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sildim. \u0130\u00e7imde garip bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 vard\u0131, sanki bu gece di\u011ferlerinden farkl\u0131 olacakt\u0131. Kap\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130\u00e7eri giren adam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez nefesim kesildi, donup kald\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc gelen s\u0131radan biri de\u011fildi\u2026 Gelen, y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim a\u011fabeyimdi. O an b\u00fct\u00fcn kan\u0131m \u00e7ekildi. Dizlerim titredi, a\u011fz\u0131mdan tek kelime \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. A\u011fabeyim \u00f6nce bana bakt\u0131, sonra etraf\u0131na, sonra yine bana\u2026 G\u00f6zlerindeki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k yerini \u00f6fkeye b\u0131rakt\u0131. Dudaklar\u0131ndan titrek bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc: \u201cZeynep\u2026 bu ne hal?!\u201d Ben g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131ma engel olamad\u0131m. S\u00f6zler bo\u011faz\u0131ma d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi, i\u00e7imden sadece h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc. Daha s\u00f6yleyecek bir \u015fey bulamadan patron kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011finde belirdi. G\u00f6zleri \u015f\u00fcpheyle k\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde sert bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme vard\u0131. \u201cNe bu bak\u0131\u015fmalar? Hadi i\u015finize bak\u0131n!\u201d dedi, tehditk\u00e2r bir sesle. A\u011fabeyim, g\u00f6zlerini ondan ay\u0131rmad\u0131. Yava\u015f ama kararl\u0131 bir sesle: \u201cBu k\u0131z benim karde\u015fim. Onu al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorum.\u201d dedi. Patron kahkaha att\u0131, odada yank\u0131land\u0131. \u201cBuraya giren \u00f6yle kolay \u00e7\u0131kamaz! Hele senin gibi delikanl\u0131 hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131karamaz. Buras\u0131 \u00f6yle ucuz bir yer de\u011fil.\u201d A\u011fabeyim cebinden bir tomar para \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131, masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne f\u0131rlatt\u0131. \u201cNe kadar istiyorsan s\u00f6yle, ama bu gece Zeynep buradan \u00e7\u0131kacak!\u201d diye hayk\u0131rd\u0131. Patron paraya \u015f\u00f6yle bir bakt\u0131, sonra bana, sonra tekrar a\u011fabeyime\u2026 Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00f6fke ve \u00e7\u0131kar \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ifade vard\u0131. Birka\u00e7 saniye sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc, sanki zaman donmu\u015ftu. Ben kalbimin sesini kulaklar\u0131mda u\u011fultu gibi duyuyordum. Sonunda patron homurdand\u0131, di\u015flerini s\u0131kt\u0131 ve eliyle kap\u0131y\u0131 i\u015faret etti. \u201cAl git\u2026 ama bir daha buralara u\u011frarsan ne seni, ne karde\u015fini sa\u011f b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m.\u201d A\u011fabeyim kolumdan tuttu. \u00c7\u0131karken dizlerim h\u00e2l\u00e2 titriyordu. Demir kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131nda, y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim o g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131. Nefesim a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, ci\u011ferlerim yanarcas\u0131na havay\u0131 i\u00e7ime \u00e7ektim. Y\u0131ld\u0131zlar parl\u0131yordu, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn kokusu vard\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131da. Y\u0131llard\u0131r i\u00e7imde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m defterin son c\u00fcmlesi geldi akl\u0131ma: \u201cBir g\u00fcn buradan kurtulaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Ve i\u015fte o gece\u2026 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m o c\u00fcmle nihayet ger\u00e7e\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. A\u011fabeyimin yan\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Ama bu defa ac\u0131dan de\u011fil, yeniden do\u011fu\u015fumdan. Ben art\u0131k ge\u00e7mi\u015fin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir numara de\u011fil, ad\u0131mla ya\u015fayan bir insand\u0131m: Zeynep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Benim ad\u0131m Zeynep\u2026 Bir zamanlar bende anam\u0131n g\u00f6z bebe\u011fi tertemiz k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131m. Ama a\u015f\u0131k oldum, beni yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zlerimi k\u00f6r etmi\u015fti. Ka\u00e7al\u0131m ailen seni bana […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":664,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-661","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/661","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=661"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/661\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":666,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/661\/revisions\/666"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/664"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=661"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=661"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bilgitarif.com\/iyi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=661"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}